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today i woke up hellaa late & i forgot to bring my ctaylors fer kristyn ! buh i remeber`d the soda =) .. well i hella tripp`d out so i call`d my brother to bring em buh she wound`d up not even wearing em .. all good well happy birthday kristyn ! today me & alissa finally finished the trial .. i`m actually gonn' miss it better than sitting in class listenin' n to the teacher talk & talk... yall noe what i mean if u had hubbs... yah well spanish was hella wack ! the teacher sent me to da office wen i wasn`t even talkin' shit it`s all good? i guess mr. arranoo didn`t relli care cuhs he KNOWs and i KNOW and everyboddy else KNOWs the teacher is crazy in da headd .. so went bacc to classs da guys were relli cool checkin' up on me to see how i was doin' & well tellin' me not to tripp.. thanks a lot i guesss haha .. found out i had a meeting at lunch fer baskebtall so i had to miss our lunch picniccc .. which `d suckd ass didn`t get to eat shit i was hela hungryyy .. well got the baskbatll piccs post `em up laterrr & the banquet is going to be gay i thought it was supoose to be at a restaurannnnt its in the wrestling room -_- .. fckkk .. yaah after school juss ki`cc`d it nothing muchh yeah dats awll bYe.

never complained about my life kept it all inside watched as others pour`d it out & wonder dont they see there is no purpose to their words eyes reading, scanning, judging .. when they find me hanging from the thing that ends my way of living oh how i wished fer a breath juss one breath but my feeble body gives up on life and there i hang with a wooden message in my hands that soon neighbors the ground.. letters do not wish to be placed in such a pattern why would it let the ink touch in a way that sends such a vital wrongful message.

Expectations have always killed me never was good enuff never was good enough .. was i ? posessing this identity meant being juss like you shall i ever be brave enough to defy thy name & be my own person .. your steps are not steps i want to walk in .. foreshadowing your path oh what hatred i have for your stupid belief of what's right & wrong .. your sick of me? im sick of you .. `till i leave this world i call my dwellings is when i can see the real world how i need you buh my stubborn hard head won't give in .. i won't give in .. juss waiting fer my picture on the milk box missing .. i grew up a fcken screw up .. alwys had problems at home mess`d wit the law yet still here standin' tall .. want to take my sins & bury it deep underground somehow you always bring it bacc' to life making me feel a emotion of regret gulit and sadness .. do you want me to suffer fer ur embarassment all ur worried about is YOU how people are going to see YOU wen dey 'know' .. always believed that i shouldn`t care wht others thought of me talk shit like i give a fck? .. aren`t you supose to tell me these things.. no.. apparently to you i`m not your golden reflection becuhs of my stubborness, independence & my deep belief in my opinoins .. i juss don`t understand .. no i will understand .. 5 mo years juss 5 more years i`ll play dis game until you end it .. i`m a survivor im not gonna give up i`m gonna make it..  i will survive.

i had to spend saturday morning at school T___T chyeah it was gay .. saw my cuhssin there fer the first time in hella longg finally got to talk .. we were supose to get out at 3;O0 buh dey let us out at 1;3O .. call`d dad to picc' me up .. went home and picc`d up some shit .. kall`d dung to come 0verrr.. made a new friend name BRiTANY <<<< hella cool white grl =] hahaha yeah .. chill`d around dungster`s house .. talk`d about hella shit .. the most FUNNiEST THiNG HAPPEND it was hilarousssss i`m not sure if i should tell you guys cuhs dung wouldn`t like it hahaha .. let`s juss say it had something to do wit body parts exposed and lingerie and guys HAHAHA .. anyways juLieee came .. went to the park & jenny & chrisitne met up wit usss .. saw a hella OLD friend at parkview ROSALiNDA we ball`d around parkview .. haha there was this cute little grl we were talkin' too at first she seem`d hella innocent !! then she threw a ball at jenny and she bit julie`s arm -_____- ... well it should of been ME .. cuhs i got her hella mad ahahaha cuhs i was making fun of her and she got mad cuhs everybody was laughing at herr & little things do come in big packages .. haha anyways went bacc' to dung's house .. kristyn soon cameee  & christina den we jusss kicc'd it around .. played FOOSBALL !! oh gawd .. this gameee i got soo addicted hahaha me & britany OWN`D !! CHYEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH u noe it =]  afterr we played hiden'seek around the neighborhood at night hella fuNNNNn yah .. went bacck in .. chill`d in dungs room again ... dung did everyone`s nailS .. got bored so went &`d gambled wit noel and some other guys i don`t noe lol .. LOST 6 DOLLARS buh they were nice i would of lost hella moree! hahah learn`d how to play poker texas something er other lol .. then we gather`d round and did the cake thing .. shit the cake was good haha ... den call`d home ... & now i`ll cut it here .. today was fun <4 ;D ..  post pictures later.

-- CHYEAHH tetherball !! bringin' bacc the elmentary days hhaa

^^ the evil grll.

-- ohh lord

-- nononoo! thats a sin hahaha

^^ new friend BRITANY ;D

i didn`t think i would go bacc' to xanga .. buh myspace doesn`t have anywhere to express your thought`s & feelins and to juss blog? well it does buh its juss gay the way they present it .. so xanga will do .. the break`s been goodd .. feels fucking good to sleep in & not get awl doll`d up to go somwhere .. hrmm didn`t do much today juss walk`d around the house wit boxers yes boxers -____- cuhs my fckin' brother doesnt know how to turn offf da damn heat juss cuhs hes sick puts that shit hella high .. haha yeahh i felt like a guy today juss chillin' on the coach watching tv ... awls i was missing was stuffing my face wit food & scratching my unmentionables .. lol ;D .. k bacc' to law&order yes i noe i have no life hahaha buh i like that show so stfu hoes =) ... latersz.